Warning: Incoming feels (I felt it was quite fitting after Turkey Day and basting in gratitude all weekend)
Let the real talk commence. We’ve known each other for a couple months. Now that you have invested your time, it is only fair for me to share a little more about myself. The biggest reason I wanted to start a blog was to get my story out there. Maybe some of you will find encouragement, maybe no one will care. Why a fashion blog?
How I dress is how strangers will perceive me. It is the first layer they will see and I will be judged even before I open my mouth. So, what kind of woman did I want them to see?
I am timid and easily anxious. Two very undesirable characteristics when making new friends. Needless to say I do not do well in social settings. Well, my 14, 18, and 21 year old self did not. I lacked confidence (blaming my dysfunctional family) and lived in self-loathing. “I’m not beautiful like those girls”, “I’m too short”, “I wish I were thinner”, “I’m not desirable” – these were only a few of the phrases that ran through my head everyday. I found unhealthy solutions to feel self worth. I became numb to the destructive relationships I had with men and my own body.
Don’t worry, I’ve shaped up since then. I still get social anxiety when I walk into a room of strangers, and have days where I feel incompetent and unattractive. But, most people have those days. What matters is how you deal with it. For me, I’ve learned to surround myself with people that will encourage and motivate me positively. I am working on a healthy relationship with my body by practicing yoga and learning to feed it more lovingly. Lastly, I found self expression in my style.
My style is made up of a lot of black (duh) and edgy pieces. As I become more comfortable in my own skin, I realize my style is a direct reflection of me. More importantly, my style has become my armor (literally and figuratively) to protect me from the rest of the world. I gravitate towards spikes, studs and masculine designs. I want strangers to view me as a strong and secure woman. But, more importantly, I know I am powerful and tough.
Here are some of my favorite jewelry pieces. See what I mean?
Arm Party featuring some of the bracelets from above.
[Karen and I over the summer before Beyoncé and Jay Z stepped on stage. I was sporting the Topshop earrings trying to be all independent woman. Clearly that was all show because we ended the concert in tears. nbd. ]
How does your style speak for you?